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Do I Value Sustaining Grace?

Here's Do I Value Sustaining Grace? I walk into Bible study ready to talk about prayer. I’m not sure how honest I want to be. While I know there is inexpressible value in prayer, I've had my own struggles with it, especially when people…

Talking Myself Through Suffering

Here's Talking Myself Through Suffering I can’t carry my plate to the table.Last month the plate posed no problems. But with post-polio, things can deteriorate rapidly. And they do.The doctors told me this would happen. But at the time, I…

Me? Change the World? (maybe not today)

Here's Me? Change the World? (maybe not today) I enter the crowded room and cringe. I’ve made a mistake.But it’s too late to run away.So I take my seat at the front.  I'm a panelist in a Q & A session run by my former MBA program. As…

But I Don’t Want to Forgive…

Here's But I Don’t Want to Forgive… She asks me about forgiveness.I look up into her tear-filled eyes and know she isn’t looking for canned advice. She wants real help, honesty, depth.I shift uncomfortably in my chair. This is a hard topic…

Has God Forgotten to be Gracious?

Here's Has God Forgotten to be Gracious? I’m discouraged. Again.Lately it seems as though nothing is going as I planned. I wake up some mornings wondering how I got here. Is God really working in this mess I call my life?I open the Bible to…

Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone?

Here's Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone? As I read the words from my old journal, I vividly recall my emotions. Shame, humiliation, doubt.The entry is dated April 16, 1983. The spring semester of my first year in college.I remember the day…

Good Friday: Consolation from the Cross

Here's Good Friday: Consolation from the Cross This year, the events of Jesus’s last days have gripped me like never before.I have read and reread the accounts of Jesus praying in the garden of Gethsemane, being delivered over to the Jewish…