But I Don’t Want to Forgive…

Here's But I Don’t Want to Forgive… She asks me about forgiveness.I look up into her tear-filled eyes and know she isn’t looking for canned advice. She wants real help, honesty, depth.I shift uncomfortably in my chair. This is a hard topic…

Has God Forgotten to be Gracious?

Here's Has God Forgotten to be Gracious? I’m discouraged. Again.Lately it seems as though nothing is going as I planned. I wake up some mornings wondering how I got here. Is God really working in this mess I call my life?I open the Bible to…

Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone?

Here's Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone? As I read the words from my old journal, I vividly recall my emotions. Shame, humiliation, doubt.The entry is dated April 16, 1983. The spring semester of my first year in college.I remember the day…

Good Friday: Consolation from the Cross

Here's Good Friday: Consolation from the Cross This year, the events of Jesus’s last days have gripped me like never before.I have read and reread the accounts of Jesus praying in the garden of Gethsemane, being delivered over to the Jewish…

This is What it means to Be Held

Here's This is What it means to Be Held Burying my precious two-month-old baby was devastating. I had no idea how to cope with his sudden unexpected death. True, Paul had been born with a heart problem, but he had survived the critical…

Are Scars Beautiful?

Here's Are Scars Beautiful? It took wild courage for me to post this picture.If you can’t figure it out, it’s a photo of the scar on my left leg. I have spent much of my life hiding my scars, particularly this train track on my shin. This…

Scarred

Here's Scarred I cringed when I saw Shelley.She was walking straight towards me. Again. I braced myself.I was just in fifth grade, but I had long learned that the world was cruel and no one could protect me from pain.I steeled myself for…

Life Lessons from my Dog

Here's Life Lessons from my Dog Ten years ago, a friend suggested that I get a service dog. Apparently some service dogs can answer the phone, carry in groceries and even do laundry. Those dogs were doing more than my family did, so I was…

Grudging Obedience and Extravagant Grace

Here's Grudging Obedience and Extravagant Grace I almost threw the book against the wall.I just couldn’t do what it was suggesting.I wanted to ignore the words on the page, put the book back on the shelf, pretend I’d never read it. But I…

What am I Waiting For?

Here's What am I Waiting For? I don’t like waiting.Ask the delivery guy who recently brought me cold pizza two hours late. Actually, don’t ask him. That’s probably more information than you need.I’m impatient.Waiting feels like a waste of…